I was always popping up all over the place; the little
master of surprise. I was blessed to
have as my willing victim a grandmother who I claimed for myself alone (despite
her other grandchildren). It was me that
would trek the ten mile hike to turn up at her door.
‘Heya, granny!’
‘Hello, little man!’ she would smile and make me tea,
and then, when I was occupied, would telephone my mum to let her know I was
safe.
I was the car boot pirate.
‘Oh, little man, you scared the living daylights out
of me!!’ But her pounding heart was
forgiving, and when we’d get home, she’d offer me a jam tart because I must be
hungry. I was. Surprises were hard work
I was the oak staircase spy; dinner parties were my
work - the swirl of ladies, the guffaw of their husbands; granny handing back
some gloves to a lady, a hint of red in the cheek, which she must have left
somewhere…
‘I’m sure they don’t belong to me.’
And Grandpa, at the drinks cabinet, swimming at ease
in his little pool of pearly smiles. I
can’t remember any of those ladies faces.
Granny beat them at their game just by keeping her living daylights safe
inside. She glowed; they all imitated. I watched her from the staircase, glad it was
only me who could sometimes surprise them out of her.
I was the mini detective. I’d swipe the garage keys and penetrate my Grandpa’s
secret cell: the Jaguar! Inside, the odour of squeaky leather and perfume was
overpowering and I never understood the dangling teddies, encumbered by hearts,
the emblazoned I love you’s… This was
a side of granny I didn’t know! It
seemed far more in keeping with those dazzling, faceless ladies. One teddy sat above the glove compartment,
his seams unpicked with the years, so long had this collection been going on.
*
After Grandpa’s accident on the A17, I imagined the
teddy’s strewn all over, the hearts shaken from their laps …. But then I conjured
up granny’s liberation; no supper to prepare, dinner parties to arrange, gloves
to hand back. Her postcard from Canada
describing hosts of wild flowers is
still on my fridge, as if she was still over there, as if I was waiting for her
to come back. She died at a ripe old
age, a happy lady. God Bless her. Releasing
me to disclose something that Little Man has kept with him an awfully long time…
One night, I went down the oak stair case - torch in
hand, the keys pinched during the early evening -and made it into the garage unbeknownst
to the alarm lights. Secret detective
cool, culprit keen. Quietly the Jaguar
let me in…and I stuffed the little alarm
into the teddy on the dashboard; a
little surprise for grandpa this time, programmed for somewhere along the A17
which - I promise - was only meant to scare him half to death.
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